A life of their own

Will you ever understand 

that your words have a life of their own

They sting, they bite and they mold

You into something you are not 

yesterday, nor day before, not tomorrow

Why I wonder that is

You don’t see it as it is

your words have a life of their own

As they leave your lips

And ring in my ears

Pounding in my head

An ache, it grows in my heart

Is it rage, is it helplessness

Is it anything I can name

I know not anymore

I run in circles 

In my head I scream

Out loud so you hear, 

so you did understand

But know not I

What you make

Of my aching heart 

And the pounding in my head

I hope one day

You will see

The scars they leave

Deep in me

Buried they stay

Until I can take no more

And drift away

To a land unknown

Were words are not spoken

Were words are not heard

Just the sweet song of the birds

Drowning out everything 

But the kind voices

The words that caress

The words that love

The words that care 

too deeply to hurt

And I catch myself 

In a dream that 

can never be mine..

Am sorry darling

The world is 

Not but a dream

And that the words 

Have a live of their own

Dancing in the Rain

And then there was rain

Pouring from the skies
Casting shadows on my wall
As the Gods mourned my plight

Mysterious pieces of art
Formed on my window sill
Reminding me how I had missed
My only compatriot of recent times

She looked at me void disdain
Playing her melancholic rhythm
As a lay there on my bed
Broken and alone

Ain't our world but a lonely place

Filled with gloom and regret
Everyone their own...

Again tonight, Sleep eludes me
As I drift into a memory
So painful, it kills me inside
To remember his face, his voice, his eyes…
Boring into me, piercing my soul

For love is but a mirage
And the pain is real
Little did I know
Young and Naïve

It had rained that night…
As I tiptoed into the balcony
Phone in hand and overjoyed

He is back I hear…
And the war is finally over

To hear his voice
After what felt like a million days
To tell him how much I loved him
And hear him smile
I could wait no more

But on that fateful night
I heard not his smile
But his pain seeping through
As he let me go…

All around me, in bits and pieces
My world fell, As I looked on...
Blinded by tears, Numb from pain
Nothing seemed to matter any more
As I stood on that railing

I could fly said the voices in my head
wind gushing through my being
I felt free… for the first time
in a long time…
And I smiled
As I hit the ground

In another world
I know I will walk again
Feel the earth under my feet and see
Leaves and flowers dancing in the rain

Oh… how I wish
I had but known
That love was a mirage
And that pain was real…

Children of the Night - Wonder

Cant help but wonder how things would have been...
A minute, love lost
Another, a new beginning

Was it the rising sun or
Her heart shining through
Ram thought to himself...

For he had never seen
A lady like her ever before...

Like the raging sea, her hair in waves 

Around her face, But her eyes... 

There was something in them that he couldn't understand...
There was love but was there also anger
There was compassion but was there also fear
There was hope but was there also pain 

He was in awe... and he knew it
She was all that he would need
She was all...

Standing there breathing in the morning air

She thought this moment is but perfect...

She could feel him for the first time

And it felt right...

He was different she knew it then... 

When he looked at her

she knew he saw through her

Not just the lips 

But the smile 

And the pain 

And the ruthlessness of it all...

It hurt to be so far she thought 

And then she smiled...

She didn't even know his name

But she felt she had known him forever...

And all she wanted to do 

Was to be standing there 

With the sun on her face 

And the cool morning breeze 

Whispering in her ears

All the while as he looked on...

Children of the Night - Run

Under the veil of night

Engulfing the sorrow around her, she flows

Knowing not where to go

Bitter, Cold, Wounded she flows

Sprinting across the paddy fields

Ram runs faster than the wind

Crying out in unison, torches held poised

The mob leaves him no choice

Frightened out of her skin

Death lurking in every corner

Gauri holds her breath,

For as long as she can remember

Society spares no one

Survival of the fittest, may I quote

Hunt them down, spill their blood

Scream the crowd, pelting stones at their faces

For the weak children of GOD

Have no place in this world anymore

Under the veil of night

Engulfing the sorrow around her, she flows

Knowing not where to go

Bitter, Cold, Wounded she flows

Window of Hope

In this labyrinth am lost forever

The Monsoon winds, a promise made

For a drop of water I stayed,

But now I see the fire burning high...

Hiding under olive branches is...

A beast chained down with ropes of steel

Eyes of fire staring down at me
Tying me down with every breath

Daring me to fly again…

For every hope seems a luxury

Too good to be true...

Free from the expectations of all around me

Free from the society eating into me
Free from the world growing around me

To a place I can feel safe again...

To sing and dance to my heart’s content

I forever long…

Not knowing if this place can ever be found

Not knowing if this place did even exist

I wait in silence, hoping to see the light

For hope is all I have…

Winds of change

Sometimes life leaves you dumbstruck

Violating your very core..

Pushing you hard and far

Unyielding, Cruel and Selfish

Into something you didn't want to know

Something you didn't ask for

As you recover gasping for breath 

You realize that its all you have now 

And then you try to love it.. living every minute 

Like it belonged to you.. 

And then you wake again 

Just to realize that even this will not last 

Through the back door
Uninvited, pain walks in..

Helpless, Shattered, Undone

There she stands in distress

Reaching out into the dark she walks ahead
Fighting an empty heart and drained spirit 
All you can do is Follow...

Fellow beings rest your worries and your fears

For there is little you can do but accept

The changes that tear you away

From everything that has made you what you are...
From everything that you hold dear...
From everything that has any meaning in life...

No Answers!!!

Wish I had time, to stop and think..
About the life that I have left behind

Creases in my jeans they seem
Now that they are fading away, sealed in time

Through the window I look down
At the city that gave it all

Music, love, friends and freedom
Even this saga had to end...

Pulled from under my feet
Abrupt is my World , my Love , my City

Move on they say, Blend in
Be one of them, Why hesitate

With a heart that has stopped listening to me,
Feelings alien to all around me...

I embark on this journey half heartedly
To the land of Unknown
To a world that I no longer understand

For there are never answers
To questions that cannot be asked..